Maria stood infront of the sanctuary staring at the gates from under her hood of a cloak. Silent hidden tears...unshown ones fell....a slight sigh escaped her lips as she finaly managed to enter. This seemed to be the only one place that could help her to get away from the ghosts of her past...of such a tragic past...Her delicate feet made her way carring Maria inside....she felt at peace for a brief..only brief moment...But what brought her to this sanctuary? Past? Yes....the ghosts of her past that she desired to forget...the guilt that she felt..the sadness...sorrow....pain of a loss.

Maria approached the altar and knelt down and sighed some. Her head lowered slightly....she now seemed to be so fragile and submissive...." God....how many times i have been your faithful fallower....you took away my dear ones...but i do not blame....it was my fault...my own...just please do help me to overcome those feelings...they so tearing me apart...i still feel torn....." she whispered. "I lost so much....and a part of mine has died together with those that loved and lost once....i know only body dies.....souls reborns.....but where to find my two jewels of my life.....they were way too young.." she sighed some and lowered her head as a tear ran down her cheek. A loss of her beloved ones...all of them...made a scar deep inside of her heart....she felt guilty for not being there when they died...how much she could do to prevent them from dieing? But she wasn't there....